Reflective Diary Highlights
RDH: SEPTEMBER 2023
05/09/23
06/09/23
Crow in flight. Morrigán. Could see the stabbed brush marks of the wings when watching it in flight. Weird. Aren’t we all?
Time needs to be set aside for practice. Shia LaBeouf.
Sounds like an excuse but a certain letter has thrown a real spanner in the works.
NB: Forgot to jot down that ‘Red Lines’ has been accepted into this years’ Royale Arcade Academy show at Arcade Studios.
07/09/23
LATE NIGHT ART - Belfast
Some very late-night sketching.
09/09/23
Setting your stall.
10/09/23
Art Wank Podcast with Array - listening during studio time.
“Painting is a place to hide thoughts, hide feelings, hide emotions.”
- Stephen Millar
The Arts are not singular. Arts as a united force for good. Collaboration.
You can’t eat prestige (or a flag).
‘Ready to Go’ blocked out. Not sure if it’s a damp squib but I think it’s worth another shot.
‘Marina’ - content with background. Loose is good. So bloody close.
13/09/23
H.B.S.
After a bit of mulling - the ‘Ready to Go’ canvas is anything but. I have forgotten the first rule:
IF IT DOESN’T EXCITE YOU THEN THERE’S SOMETHING WRONG
It is not and it is also an image that, if it’s going to work, will need another image merged to elevate it.
It is a solid image, and it has a resonance with me personally but it’s just not doing it for me, for the want of a better phrase.
Handed in ‘Red Lines’ to Arcade. Stopped by the MAC to see ‘No History in a Room filled with People wih Funny Names 5’ by Korakrit Arunanondchai and Alex Gvojic with Tosh Basco. An extremely immersive experience.
Abhartach - the Irish Vampire.
Black / Peaty Soil. Roots become negative space. Possible triptych?
14/09/23
Abhartach - source material…
This will be for down the line. Even the little portrait alongside ‘Ready to Go’ on acetate has more promise and, more importantly, has my head spinning!
Back of the bus, it’s been a long time.
Can see where… might have an advantage. More time. Been reading “The World New Made - Figurative Painting in the 20th Century” by Timothy Hyman.
“I was alone in my studio in front of my oil lamp. Two or three in the morning… Dawn is breaking… I used to sit up like that all night long. My lamp burned, and I with it.”
- Marc Chagall c.1920
Henri Rousseau = recovered a primal truth in painting.
17/09/23
Short Sunday Sessions.
“Marina” finished! But only just. A little over indulgent with the fixative meant some emergency fixing (irony) was needed.
If I had my wits about me I should’ve drawn up a new canvas in the 45 minutes spare. Hindsight.
“Look to Henri Rousseau as examplar for a renewal of figural language reborn in the image of childhood.”
- Timothy Hyman
18/09/23
20 week scan. All well! Surreal.
Also, on the way to Causeway - a lovely note, Warm, fuzzy feeling.
21/09/23
22/09/23
Breaking the Cultural Code - Tenth Anniversary of Derry’s UK City of Culture.
“Culture is everyday lived experience.”
- Sir Phil Redmond
Culture Night Derry
24/09/23
Studio time. There was a temptation to rework ‘Ready to Go’ for a minute. Had to remind myself that structurally it’s interesting but it doesn’t excite me to see where it can go.
“A Brush with… Claudette Johnson”
A really promising start to three canvases today.
25/09/23 & 26/09/23
BP high. Ordered to Antrim A&E. Arrived at 7pm - didn’t get seen until 10am on Tuesday. Tests to be done and rest needed. Poor timing.
28/09/23
…day in court.
29/09/23
VAI Get Together 2023 - Online day.
Imogen Stidworthy - How We Work.
30/09/23
Be better at channeling time and effort into productive means.
We’re all a work in progress.
RDH: JULY 2023
02/07/23
TALK ART: TIM STONER
“When you are a mature artist, you’re not a mature painter”
“Process of Catharsis”.
“The world can only be grasped by action, not by contemplation. The hand is more important than the eye… The hand is the cutting edge of the mind.”
from ‘The Ascent of Man’ by Jacob Bronowski
Really good going with “In a Huff” today. Yellow a little acidic maybe and the t-shirt needs refining - but not to the point of going too tight with it.
06/07/23
09/07/23
‘A Brush with… Jeremy Deller’
“In a Huff” - muted the floor; slightly less acidic and lightened the background / walls. T-Shirt texture is troublesome so pared it back to jostle with it another day.
“Put it Away” - background darkened and textured up. Happy little accidents like the dripping on the skin and around the mouth. Have kept them there for now. Perhaps veil them at a later layering stage.
The lighter hair is going to be a challenge and at this point it’s rough as hell
but
I’m looking forward to tackling it again. I feel this may be a case of slowly working in between a few days of drying time. The open hand is a headache because the source image is so bleached out with light that it looks flat. COUNTER THIS.
11/07/23
A few days off.
LATE NIGHT SKETCHING!
13/07/23
Palette cleaned and two new canvases drawn up. Essentially getting ready for Sunday/Monday painting session.
Noticed something when looking through acetate sources. Initials. Lots and lots of initials. Subconsciously adding? Especially ‘A’. If you look at the drawings (and by proxy the paintings too as I try to keep elements of the drawing mark there too) they are there from the get go. Food for thought.
15/07/23
… submitted …
16/07/23
Thought better of putting paint out for a morning studio session. Decided to focus on pushing the drawing and tonal elements of the two new canvas works instead. Full day in the studio tomorrow. Best not throwing that away!
17/07/23
The bones of Orestes.
A really good day in the studio. “In a Huff” finished and more progress on “Put it Away”. Also some layering and groundwork done on the two new pieces. More of this please!
19/07/23
Take own advice.
22/07/23
Oppenheimer = outstanding.
23/07/23
A solid six hours in the studio. Good momentum on large piece - still no title (but worked from an image of Marina Ginestà). An enjoyable birthday weekend.
27/07/23
… preselection…
30/07/23
Not feeling it today. That does not mean that you simply walk away from studio. Grind it out. Do something! Will set ‘Marina’ aside and work on “Put it Away” instead.
See what happens if you stick it out!? Finished this painting even though head was not in it today at all. Yes, the guts of it was done and it just needed refined in certain areas. There’s a level of satisfaction to be had when you accomplish something that is usually the bread and butter stuff when you’re not in the zone. Makes it sweeter somehow.
RDH: MARCH 2023
01/03/23
Hunter / Gatherer Mode: Night Two
05/03/23
Studio - a long needed clean-up and great to get going with paints again.
Working on larger-than-life hands - a teacher once told us that if you can draw hands, you can draw anything. This is whirling around in my head today as I tackle these.
08/03/23
…not selected. A little disheartening but onwards and upwards.
12/03/23
Back has hindered any studio time this weekend.
…well Sunday night took a turn for the weird. Trip in ambulance to hospital. Struggled to breathe. Long story short: X-Ray clear, CT Scan clear but blood tests abnormal.
A few days rest needed.
15/03/23
Sketchbook work.
Want to utilise time better.
18/03/23
GRAND SLAM!
19/03/23
Some really substantial progress today on “Boy Soldier”. A balancing act as always.
27/03/23
What a year it’s been! Happy Birthday to our little girl, Imogen.
29/03/23
List of drawings that have ‘slipped’ through the net…
20+ images that have popped out this time around. There’s potential for further progress here. Strange how on another day of sifting through past work a separate set of images could jump out.
The brain is an odd critter.
RDH: APRIL 2022
01/04/22
First bath.
02/04/22
…only to have the computer crash.
06/04/22
The best of intentions.
07/04/22
Sketchbook work. Blowing off the cobwebs.
08/04/22
Great to meet a good friend for a coffee and a chat.
10/04/22
14/04/22
Need to find a centre ground in practice. It’s been an amazing 18 days with the beginnings of family life.
Red Head Redemption?
16/04/22
Nari Ward on ‘A Brush With’
“Chance is a material.” - N.W.
Really pleased with how ‘Girl with Red Hair’ turned out. Little bit of ogham incorporated into the sleeve - hangover from the Catalyst residency? No bad thing.
18/04/22
Delegate. Divide (time) and Conquer.
23/04/22
Just seen EMIC on ‘The Art that Made Us’ on BBC.
Incredible! So delighted for EMIC. What a platform and in such amazing company!
24/04/22
Some good movement in the studio today. There does seem to be a struggle with imagery at the minute. Solution: back to the drawing board. Literally. Setting time aside for drawing will help no end.
One Month old!
28/04/22
Sketchbook work tonight. Limited but worthwhile.
30/04/22
Little comparison to W.C. Honoured.
Studio time. “In the Pond” is getting there but need to be careful not to over paint.
…some interest in a selection process?
RDH: JANUARY 2021
03/01/21
‘sub cruce salus’
… too simplistic or is it hard to get ideas across?
04/01/21
Need to leave site.
05/01/21
Elevator pitch: use personal and found imagery to explore notions of trauma, memory and experience. (13 words, 83 characters)
imagery with personal connection - greater impact?
large scale drawings = link between sketchbook and canvas.
06/01/21
FORM —> CONTENT —> FORM —> CONTENT …
Can you distil the feeling of an image?
Play with gesture.
…adding just for the sake doesn’t cut it. Integrate if it adds to a message.
07/01/21
08/01/21
Growing uncertainty in other areas is just leading to this “deer in headlights” feeling.
09/01/21
Lists are all well and good but to get making again ; that’s what it’s all about.
10/01/21
Passionate about painting / drawing and interplay between the mark-making of both processes… juxtaposing imagery. How do they sit together?
11/01/21
Still have to show though.
12/01/21
16/01/21
A little slow to get in today but four canvas pieces off the starting block which makes up for it.
18/01/21
21/01/21
…in a jar for the day.
23/01/21
25/01/21
Sketchbook work
27/01/21
…days just melting into each other.
28/01/21
Not one but two zooms this evening.
29/01/21
Some surprising paint down today. Loosely does it.
30/01/21
Cold.