catalyst arts belfast
RDH: AUGUST 2023
02/08/23
Securing loose ends this week. Collecting and dropping off work.
Still from “THE NEW DAWN FADES” by Clare Langan at the Golden Thread Gallery.
09/08/23
Fell through. In any case it was still an honour to have been asked alongside the other artists!
11/08/23
14/08/23
Wonderful time over in London. Tried to paint today. Stared at the work for ages but nothing leaped out. Sometimes just looking can be productive. Time to re-energise and heal.
15/08/23
Now may be a suitable time to take own advice and reach out…. can’t just fire a blanket. Have enough work.
17/08/23
Reset desperately needed. Very distracted creatively at the minute. Whatever time can be set aside MUST be used for artistic purposes. Hopefully will get on the right track. Am I too harsh on myself?
Pleased to be a part of Catalyst Arts Member’s Show.
20/08/23
Some progress but not much. Don’t want to dwell on this too much but, as an honest self-assessment in a diary context, WTF. The will to paint is there at times, at others it’s the furthest thing from mind. Perhaps if there were one or two short - medium term targets. Something to aim for may light the fire again.
21/08/23
23/08/23
Yesterday… will remain nameless but they reminded me of the passion and push to create. Jan had noticed when I haven’t made work in a while my mood goes down, procrastination increases and there’s a that wee spiral downwards.
Accepting you’re in a rut.
Take a Break - self care.
Collaborate with others.
Change it Up.
Search for Inspiration
Keep Going
Morning pages - keep moving the pen. Don’t stop writing.
Pages 1 -3: Uncontrolled free writing
Page 4: Reflection on the day.
Advice from subconscious. Not showing my best self. Live by example. To be able to hold your head high. Shake it off and move on.
Clean, workable space
Back to the drawing board (there is a reason this is a saying)
30 minutes of drawing / research is better than 30 minutes of trash TV. Use time wisely!
24/08/23
I wonder if the morning papers would work for sketchbook work. Probably not unlike what Maggie Hambling does as part of her morning routine.
It’s a beautiful morning. The sun is blinding in the brilliant flashes as the bus winds and turns heading across the river Bann. Wall to wall blue. …solo heart to heart, I did my best to be less distracted last night. It’s about being conscious about the negative habits and aiming to nip them in the bud as quick as possible that should really make pay dividends.
Sore neck = Poor Posture.
…give myself permission…
You’d think that well over a decade I should know the answer.
IDEAS / DRAWING / REFLECTIONS / LISTS
Anything goes. The only rule is to put pen to paper every day as much as possible.
Life has a way of happening around you so if shit happens and venting is needed. That’s OK. A.i.L. - L.i.A.
Observing more can only be a good thing - possible leads into other areas of practice. Maybe best to not get too carried away.
Called into Anne Butler’s show “Objects in Time” at the GT on lunch. Such beautiful detail and intricacy in something so delicate and heavy. Love it when materials aim to confuse - mimic characteristics of another.
27/08/23
“Ready to Go” - does it need scaled up? Looking at the “Rooftop / Marina” piece, there are elements in the city scape that are working. Nice, loose and gestural marks but it still needs a lot of work. For the roof in the foreground, less charcoal marks perhaps? Just get something down.
“RtG” charcoaled up, witg the figure more prominent, its already looks like a far more intertersting composition. Solid progres on “Marina” today, especially the cityscape. SSS' aren’t to be taken lightly.
NB: SSS stands for Short Sunday Sessions.
28/08/23
APPLY
30/08/23
Dublin - Curved street is great!
31/08/23
Looking forward to ARRAY event tonight.
Fifteen years. Fifteen years since my outlook was altered forever. Still raw, even after all this time. Anniversaries reel back the pain like a fishing line. You cast it off eventually, but it will always come back. Wrote that like Senior.
“The Night Draws Near” by Array at the Ulster Museum. Wonderful experience.
BE PRESENT!
I will remember the chorus; singing as we were led up to the Síbín for a long time.
RDH: JUNE 2023
03/06/23
Late night transferring… some drawings that have slipped through the net over the years.
04/06/23
06/06/23
08/06/23
09/06/23
10/06/23
Studio cleaned, layered on two new smaller pieces, and cleaned palette.
11/06/23
…no more diddly-dallyin’, let’s get right on into this Sunday studio session. (IYKYK)
Substantial progress on “Put it Away”. Little prayer piece, not so much.
12/06/23
So “Put it Away” moving along nicely and a little surprisingly. The new paints are making a difference, I think.
13/06/23
Visit to the Belfast School of Art Degree Show.
14/06/23
Didn’t get to sketch tonight as intended but there will be time set aside.
Mythology / Semiotics
…venturing onwards…
It’s just dawned on me that Saturdays will alter. Well, they’ll change a good few times in the coming years. But - as always, adapt, re-organise, create, repeat.
15/06/23
After all that graft … to be left at home.
Lovely comment today. Left painting over to Catalyst for showcase and auction coming up.
18/06/23
Studio time now. Let’s see where these go.
Quick notes for Prey/Pray:
charcoal first
contrast facial tones
less marks in hair - blurred or subdued
Quick notes for “In a Corner/ Huff”
Scrape paint on walls - flatter
T-Shirt work
NB: Didn’t get as much done as I would like to.
19/06/23
PRINTS HAVE DROPPED!!!
20/06/23
FB Memories - use to dust cobwebs off? Also just having the small sketchbook close by - for out and about.
Is it too fuzzy? Probably do no harm to have the mini sketchbook around with me - as was the original idea for it.
One thing I have noticed, and it’s a good thing. With the two journeys on the bus three times a week and the time at lunch, I’ve noticed some considerably more writing / thinking time / ideas coming into RD.
I’ve even started bringing a book with me on the bus. Although The Iliad was probably a poor first choice. I am eager to delve into mythology / symbolism again.
The legend of “Bisclavret” has been crawling through my head the past few days.
IIW = IMAGES IN WAITING
21/06/23
Quick stop to see the work in Catalyst’s Showcase.
22/06/23
23/06/23
Our beautiful Bonnie, my studio assistant and my dad’s blonde shadow passed away in her sleep last night. Everyone is hurting. 12 and a half wonderful years. The best girl.
24/06/23
…called in to say hello… folds around eye went in such a way that it looked like he didn’t have a socket let alone an eye. Hard to explain.
Quick Question = Very Quick Yes
25/06/23
“A Brush With… Jacqueline Humphries”.
Finished “Let Us Pray”. Areas successful, others not.
28/06/23
Dublin Bound.
Culchie boy, I love you / Grá mo chroí thú, mo chábóigín féin – Kian Benson Bailes at the Project Arts Centre.
“an atom bomb in each morsel of life” by Katherine Sankey in the LAB Gallery. Beautiful aroma in that first box space.
RDH: DECEMBER 2022
Sketchbook work - it’s been way too long!
03/12/22
Quick studio time…
… as suspected, it didn’t take much to get last two paintings of the year over the line. Still aiming to keep the (well, less is more is a little inaccurate) “Stop before I think I should” mentality.
Definitely less misses with this strategy.
08/12/22
‘New Exits: 10 Years of Painting’ opening at the MAC. Excellent show. Daniel Coleman’s painting ‘The House Down the Lane’ is absolutely stunning. It moved me to tears. A real stand out from a strong group show.
11/12/22
Freezing in the studio.
Drew up two small works (having a crack at the ‘Jaws’ image again - with a slightly altered composition) and have set up to take a look at a couple of pieces that have fallen through the cracks recently.
‘Street Walker’ and ‘Laughing Man’ (working titles).
17/12/22
Wood is for the living, stone for the dead.
Said farewell to GT’s reading round. It’s been such a boost having this weekly outlet of chatting, sharing ideas and making connections. Had a great run!
Stream of admin this evening.
18/12/22
“Tomorrow is Saturday” - Interesting documentary on Sean Hillen.
28/12/22
Studio time. “The Week in Art: 2022 in review” podcast.
Blocking in on the small piece. ‘Man looking in his pocket while descending the stairs’ or ‘Looking for keys’ OR ‘Check your pocket’.
29/12/22
Newcastle.
30/12/22
Penultimate day of the year. admin and prep before a few hours in the studio!
For the time of the year that it is, I find myself in a bit of a reflective and thankful mood. 2022 has been good to me.
Collaborative residency and exhibition with Catalyst.
Work shown at the Boyle Arts Festival, Roscommon.
Part of the Royal Ulster Academy Exhibition in the Ulster Museum, Belfast.
Gave a talk with Basic Space Dublin in the Hugh Lane Gallery.
And most importantly, became a father!
There have been losses also. People who have impacted our lives that have moved on, but their imprint will remain.
So much to be thankful for, a loving family, the support of friends and loved ones during the highs and lows. Also, to those who took a chance on my work, who invited me to be a part of their projects:
THANK YOU!
2022 in Pictures
January
February
March
April
May
June
July
August
September
October
November
December
RDH: FEBRUARY 2022
01/02/22
Daft Punk Live - Alive. Frantic.
Sketch with music on in the background. No Show and Tell, just Tell.
05/02/22
4,000 weeks. Poetics of space.
Great to meet up with J.A. and S.T and to see Catalyst’s new space.
Quick jaunt to the GT and to the MAC in the morning. Edy Fung’s and Ronnie Hughes’ work were great! Hughes’ translucent layers of paint suck you in and grab hold. Shimmering colour clashes.
Head is buzzing with ideas. Exciting!
06/02/22
Mary Beard’s Forbidden Art. - Pan and the She-Goat.
Daphne Todd - painted recently dead mother.
“Violence will always be a part of the human experience.”
Mary Beard
It’s been an odd weekend. Great but odd.
Ideas are starting to be slid into place about how ‘Ogham’ will be approached. Churning away so keep faith.
It’s been a limbo sort of a day. Feeling the need to do SOMETHING - but not being able to find the energy.
Reading, research, drawing, responding.
Readymade… Domestic
So, actually I retract the ‘limbo’ statement. I did do things today. I was productive. It’s just there wasn’t any tangible outcome. Case and point… 7th page.
07/02/22
Sketchbook with Daft Punk on - upping the tempo.
08/02/22
Fabric search.
Carving out ideas. Scrap yard.
09/02/22
H.B.M. Looking forward to getting into the garage this weekend.
Let’s give it a goo!
12/02/22
Aoife Dunn - IMMA: Socially engaging sculpture.
May have slipped a disc. Acetate sketches.
SUN - MOON - HOME
14/02/22
Image sorting today.
16/02/22
Meeting. Repetition and extremities. Develop and evolve.
17/02/22
J.A. Studio Visit!
19/02/22
Studio time! Finally! Using just titanium white and charcoal - both willow and compressed - to work up images. Going back to my process’ roots - year 2 in art college. Two new works started.
22/02/22
‘Ogham’ has begun. Dog study - black dog. Great to see what S.T. is doing in the space and Rachel’s response.
SLOW AND LOW SHOOTING STAR.
24/02/22
Snow! Appointment done.
25/02/22
Belfast bound. Scared guide dog on the 212.
Great to get into the space at Catalyst and set up for the next two days. Began working on two pieces. ‘Don't Look’ in ogham.
The fourth wall is glass. Casting of mouth by S.T. Reminds me of ‘Red Dragon’ from the SotL prequel of the same name.
26/02/22
Day two in the space. Time is not our friend but still have to remind ourselves that there’s no end goal needed. Just to respond and be creatively present.
So good to meet Rachel and see Steph’s process in the flesh.
RDH: MAY 2021
01/05/21
NB: Take a little more time…
"History Repeating”: Good Start!
02/05/21
Admin all day long!
03/05/21
Sketchbook work with snooker on in the background. Not a bad combination
04/05/21
passing-time.org : great concept for a website showcasing work.
05/05/21
Submission unsuccessful.
Studio time eventually… come the weekend I will probably try and figure out a way to block out the planes so that I can paint the red container background in one motion. Right now its all a little scrappy and stop/start.
07/05/21
Belfast bound. When walking around the town I hear ARRAY have been nominated for the Turner Prize! Amazing news and thoroughly well deserved! This feels like it could be a huge boost to Belfast / NI art community going forward.
08/05/21
Rodin’s “Gates of Hell”
…has to reflect your own practice. We all think and experience the world differently.
Weekend screening of ‘Painting After Postmodernism with Barbara Rose’ courtesy of The Brooklyn Rail.
… permit the accident and then aim to control it afterwards.
Concept of space - innovation of contemporary painting regardless of abstract or figurative work.
09/05/21
Initially didn’t feel in form for studio today but it really does pay off to just do it and go in regardless.
Masked planes and now I’m fairly content with the more solid / rusted container in the background.
10/05/21
Sketchbook work.
12/05/21
The over-thinking / perfectionist side is in overdrive.
Perhaps it’s the large scale that is showing up it’s flaws. Embrace the flaws? Easier said than done - however I do seem to appreciate other artist’s little oddities in their work that could be seen as inaccurate. One person’s poor areas are another person’s highlights I guess.
There’s a lot to be said for confidence in the work and/or the process. Here’s to letting go.
13/05/21
Finally bit the bullet in some respects. “T.H.T.H” sold!
14/05/21
Memory is so imperfect.
15/05/21
A lot of doodles and not much substance.
Joan of Arc will be the elephant in the room today.
Figurative -> Genre
Abstract -> Colour / Editing
Perfectionism is stifling “History Repeating” It’s getting there but extremely slow and frustrating. Straddling between realistic and looser motifs. In two minds when in the thick of it all.
16/05/21
17/05/21
OFFSITE from Catalyst Arts. Peer Support / crit group was excellent and definitely well worth expanding on.
Patterns of People.
The act of Keening / Post-memory.
18/05/21
Paint the fence.
19/05/21
That ‘I want to be on my own’ kind of feeling.
“H.R.” - truly, these planes are the bane of my life at the minute. Whatever the case, regardless of how they are (in my eyes) I’ll want to push on and be done with this canvas by the weekend….
…are they finished? Dare to hope.
IMMA talk with Chantal Joffe and Katy Hessel - ‘The Artist’s Mother’.
‘Attempting the impossible’ - the best definition of portraiture and painting.
Just submitted “Shock” and “Gathering Thoughts”.
20/05/21
21/05/21
‘The Training of Memory in Art and the education of the Artist’ by Horace Lecoq de Boisbaudran.
Cart and standing figures worked on today. Trying to strike a balance between the light tones of the ground, the bodies and the cart.
22/05/21
25/05/21
Work and yard work.
26/05/21
“History Repeating” finished!
28/05/21
Saltz v Scully.
Started putting paint down on one of the smaller pieces and just decided to call it. Whether the smaller works are tripping me up on where to go next or they’re just not exciting me enough to push on. I’m not sure.
30/05/21
When asked if I would be willing to help Ciara McMullan, an architecture student with a project, I was happy to fill out a questionnaire and make some small works on canvas and glass to include in a study model of a studio / exhibition space. I was blown away to see the final results of the project. Some fantastic ideas.
31/05/21
Late night sketching to finish off the month. The past few weeks has seen an unusually singular focus / pandering to one specific canvas. Typically I jump from one work to another with usually three on the go at once. I always thought this helped keep the head and the eyes fresh. I wonder if this may explain May.
Slight sense of fatigue creeping in. At least there are avenues to explore in terms of going about fixing it.
RDH: MAY 2020
01/05/20
Finding a new normal.
02/05/20
…so not just images / maps / diagrams but also fears: nightmares.
Where are you?
What’s your date of birth?
What’s today’s date?
Do you know why you are here?
Who is the Prime minister?
Lift both arms
Push against me.
Follow my finger.
Any dizziness? Nausea?
…cover the eyes.
05/05/20
VAI’s café: So good to see what Cecilia Danell is up to in lockdown.
06/05/20
Tried drawing. Didn’t go well. It’s going to take longer than first thought to get back to creative work. Super frustrating.
11/05/20
Head is so sore today. Silver lining: Jerry Saltz’s “How to Be an Artist” arrived today.
12/05/20
…avoid little voice neigh-saying in your head. All topics are valid.
utilise R.D. more.
…with found imagery, find and explore that connection to your own experiences.
You never stop learning or looking for new ways to work.
Sharpen observational skills. Draw from experience.
Over-analysing? Maybe.
“A work of art cannot depend on explanation” - Jerry Saltz
14/05/20
Really enjoyed the webinar from VAI with CCA’s Catherine Hemelryk
INTEGRITY!
16/05/20
National Drawing Day. Really good to sit down and just draw today. Did a live-stream where I set up a still life and a few people drew along.
17/05/20
John Berger is always a good read.
18/05/20
Sketchbook work
19/05/20
VAI café
Orla Whelan: existential questions - preoccupation with death. Philosophical exploration.
Another little bit of late night sketching.
22/05/20
The virtual opening of the Catalyst Members Show.
More late night sketchbook work.
24/05/20
“An artists’ job is to reflect the time we live in.” - Nina Simone
26/05/20
“Using line to make visual texture” - Fiona Rae on Dürer
27/05/20
28/05/20
Started teaching my dad how to stretch canvas as I can’t at the moment.
Apparently I have the same birthday as Edward Hopper.
30/05/20
31/05/20
“At root, truth to painting is truth to light.” - Juliam Barnes