exhibition
RDH: APRIL 2024
Clothing detail work on “Last Fancy Dress” and a promising start on “They Had It Coming”. Keep it raw - how do you describe that?
11/04/24
Submission 1.
16/04/24
Submission 2. Ran out of time for drawing work.
17/04/24
Sketchbook work.
S.A.W.E.D.
18/04/24
Submission 3 - an open call.
21/04/24
Studio - pre paint notes:
Headscarf - maroon?
Background - a sickly yellow / green (not unlike “Amy Study”.
Now that the canvas is covered (no more blankness) - it’s show time.
24/04/24
Dublin bound. Really bad that I have gotten out of the way writing in this. [slaps wrist].
S.V. confirmed! Class!
Popped into the LAB Gallery to see “Emergency Knowledge: The Missing Archives - Vagabond Reviews”. Great to see Save Our Sperrins highlighted among other important causes.
25/04/24
OK, so I’ve been putting this off for a while and now, it seems that bus time is usually RD time these days.
Project idea I had maybe ten years ago: record a sitter - up close in portrait whilst asking questions - mix of mundane and psychological. Between each question - leave around 20 - 30 seconds. The sitter remains silent throughout - more of an introspective process. The idea was to then take still of video and convert to painting.
What if…
instead of a static camera on tripod (that I tried back in 2014) - the footage moved in, out and around the sitter?
And…
instead of working off individual stills on separate works - merging onto one surface. Showing a variation in composition, scale and method of painting depending on the image taken throughout the test?
So, let’s take stock…
Four submissions done in past 6 weeks plus an SV!
Sketchbook work tonight - since brain is firing on a few more cylinders than usual.
27/04/24
Four years. Surreal.
28/04/24
Studio time.
Well, after nearly losing it on the skin tones - “THIC” turned out better than I could have hoped. A strange feeling.
30/04/24
“mother tongue” in the MAC - GREAT!
Dorothy Hunter’s work took breath away! Bloody brilliant.
RDH: MARCH 2024
02/03/24
C. S. - death note. (video grab possibly)
03/03/24
‘Séance’ piece might have had its day. Setting it away for now. ‘Final Fancy Dress’ - good progress made. Tight in portrait and looser strokes in the clothing.
06/03/24
Alright - lazy / stupid. No ifs, no buts.
10/03/24
Background progress on ‘badger’ piece. ‘Séance’ has been cleansed. Just went too far. Compositionally flawed from the offset and was fighting a losing battle. Lesson learnt.
12/03/24
Didn’t get in. A bit annoyed but there is always next year.
13/03/24
Bit the bullet and took the initiative. A nice reply - now trying to not get ahead of myself.
17/03/24
Drew up F.W. on large canvas and some good tonal progress on ‘Gallery Visit’ today in the studio. Background more vibrant perhaps?
21/03/24
22/03/24
‘Restraint Study’ and ‘Amy Study’ submitted. 🤞
23/03/24
Trip to Derry for VOID Arts Centre opening ‘Composting for the Future’. Harking back to projects of the past yet paving a new, more collaborative direction.
24/03/24
‘Gallery Visit’ - few tweaks, bit more blurring and hey presto - finito!
27/03/24
28/03/24
Did not make the long-list. Ah well.
30/03/24
Trip to Portaferry and a slight change in plans for Sunday. Back to the studio all being well next week!
RDH: AUGUST 2023
02/08/23
Securing loose ends this week. Collecting and dropping off work.
Still from “THE NEW DAWN FADES” by Clare Langan at the Golden Thread Gallery.
09/08/23
Fell through. In any case it was still an honour to have been asked alongside the other artists!
11/08/23
14/08/23
Wonderful time over in London. Tried to paint today. Stared at the work for ages but nothing leaped out. Sometimes just looking can be productive. Time to re-energise and heal.
15/08/23
Now may be a suitable time to take own advice and reach out…. can’t just fire a blanket. Have enough work.
17/08/23
Reset desperately needed. Very distracted creatively at the minute. Whatever time can be set aside MUST be used for artistic purposes. Hopefully will get on the right track. Am I too harsh on myself?
Pleased to be a part of Catalyst Arts Member’s Show.
20/08/23
Some progress but not much. Don’t want to dwell on this too much but, as an honest self-assessment in a diary context, WTF. The will to paint is there at times, at others it’s the furthest thing from mind. Perhaps if there were one or two short - medium term targets. Something to aim for may light the fire again.
21/08/23
23/08/23
Yesterday… will remain nameless but they reminded me of the passion and push to create. Jan had noticed when I haven’t made work in a while my mood goes down, procrastination increases and there’s a that wee spiral downwards.
Accepting you’re in a rut.
Take a Break - self care.
Collaborate with others.
Change it Up.
Search for Inspiration
Keep Going
Morning pages - keep moving the pen. Don’t stop writing.
Pages 1 -3: Uncontrolled free writing
Page 4: Reflection on the day.
Advice from subconscious. Not showing my best self. Live by example. To be able to hold your head high. Shake it off and move on.
Clean, workable space
Back to the drawing board (there is a reason this is a saying)
30 minutes of drawing / research is better than 30 minutes of trash TV. Use time wisely!
24/08/23
I wonder if the morning papers would work for sketchbook work. Probably not unlike what Maggie Hambling does as part of her morning routine.
It’s a beautiful morning. The sun is blinding in the brilliant flashes as the bus winds and turns heading across the river Bann. Wall to wall blue. …solo heart to heart, I did my best to be less distracted last night. It’s about being conscious about the negative habits and aiming to nip them in the bud as quick as possible that should really make pay dividends.
Sore neck = Poor Posture.
…give myself permission…
You’d think that well over a decade I should know the answer.
IDEAS / DRAWING / REFLECTIONS / LISTS
Anything goes. The only rule is to put pen to paper every day as much as possible.
Life has a way of happening around you so if shit happens and venting is needed. That’s OK. A.i.L. - L.i.A.
Observing more can only be a good thing - possible leads into other areas of practice. Maybe best to not get too carried away.
Called into Anne Butler’s show “Objects in Time” at the GT on lunch. Such beautiful detail and intricacy in something so delicate and heavy. Love it when materials aim to confuse - mimic characteristics of another.
27/08/23
“Ready to Go” - does it need scaled up? Looking at the “Rooftop / Marina” piece, there are elements in the city scape that are working. Nice, loose and gestural marks but it still needs a lot of work. For the roof in the foreground, less charcoal marks perhaps? Just get something down.
“RtG” charcoaled up, witg the figure more prominent, its already looks like a far more intertersting composition. Solid progres on “Marina” today, especially the cityscape. SSS' aren’t to be taken lightly.
NB: SSS stands for Short Sunday Sessions.
28/08/23
APPLY
30/08/23
Dublin - Curved street is great!
31/08/23
Looking forward to ARRAY event tonight.
Fifteen years. Fifteen years since my outlook was altered forever. Still raw, even after all this time. Anniversaries reel back the pain like a fishing line. You cast it off eventually, but it will always come back. Wrote that like Senior.
“The Night Draws Near” by Array at the Ulster Museum. Wonderful experience.
BE PRESENT!
I will remember the chorus; singing as we were led up to the Síbín for a long time.
RDH: JUNE 2023
03/06/23
Late night transferring… some drawings that have slipped through the net over the years.
04/06/23
06/06/23
08/06/23
09/06/23
10/06/23
Studio cleaned, layered on two new smaller pieces, and cleaned palette.
11/06/23
…no more diddly-dallyin’, let’s get right on into this Sunday studio session. (IYKYK)
Substantial progress on “Put it Away”. Little prayer piece, not so much.
12/06/23
So “Put it Away” moving along nicely and a little surprisingly. The new paints are making a difference, I think.
13/06/23
Visit to the Belfast School of Art Degree Show.
14/06/23
Didn’t get to sketch tonight as intended but there will be time set aside.
Mythology / Semiotics
…venturing onwards…
It’s just dawned on me that Saturdays will alter. Well, they’ll change a good few times in the coming years. But - as always, adapt, re-organise, create, repeat.
15/06/23
After all that graft … to be left at home.
Lovely comment today. Left painting over to Catalyst for showcase and auction coming up.
18/06/23
Studio time now. Let’s see where these go.
Quick notes for Prey/Pray:
charcoal first
contrast facial tones
less marks in hair - blurred or subdued
Quick notes for “In a Corner/ Huff”
Scrape paint on walls - flatter
T-Shirt work
NB: Didn’t get as much done as I would like to.
19/06/23
PRINTS HAVE DROPPED!!!
20/06/23
FB Memories - use to dust cobwebs off? Also just having the small sketchbook close by - for out and about.
Is it too fuzzy? Probably do no harm to have the mini sketchbook around with me - as was the original idea for it.
One thing I have noticed, and it’s a good thing. With the two journeys on the bus three times a week and the time at lunch, I’ve noticed some considerably more writing / thinking time / ideas coming into RD.
I’ve even started bringing a book with me on the bus. Although The Iliad was probably a poor first choice. I am eager to delve into mythology / symbolism again.
The legend of “Bisclavret” has been crawling through my head the past few days.
IIW = IMAGES IN WAITING
21/06/23
Quick stop to see the work in Catalyst’s Showcase.
22/06/23
23/06/23
Our beautiful Bonnie, my studio assistant and my dad’s blonde shadow passed away in her sleep last night. Everyone is hurting. 12 and a half wonderful years. The best girl.
24/06/23
…called in to say hello… folds around eye went in such a way that it looked like he didn’t have a socket let alone an eye. Hard to explain.
Quick Question = Very Quick Yes
25/06/23
“A Brush With… Jacqueline Humphries”.
Finished “Let Us Pray”. Areas successful, others not.
28/06/23
Dublin Bound.
Culchie boy, I love you / Grá mo chroí thú, mo chábóigín féin – Kian Benson Bailes at the Project Arts Centre.
“an atom bomb in each morsel of life” by Katherine Sankey in the LAB Gallery. Beautiful aroma in that first box space.
2022 in Pictures
January
February
March
April
May
June
July
August
September
October
November
December
RDH: OCTOBER 2022
02/10/22
#Mousegate
Strange events
08/10/22
…notes complete. Need refined for easy consumption.
13/10/22
Royal Ulster Academy opening. Craig Donald won an award for best portrait! A great night all round and chuffed to see my little painting up on the wall with some wonderful artists.
14/10/22
Early start. Perhaps the X in X4 stands for extra-long.
Talk in the Hugh Lane couldn’t have gone any better. Pleased with the reaction and feedback from everyone and profoundly grateful to Basic Space for the opportunity to speak.
15/10/22
‘A Brush With… William Kentridge’.
charcoal - the indeterminacy of the point.
… at the edge of meaning.
“Give an image the benefit of the doubt… there is a danger in certainty.”
William Kentridge.
21/10/22
NB: Melancholic apostle image interesting.
22/10/22
World of proximities.
23/10/22
26/10/22
David Lynch “The Art Life” - documentary
27/10/22
“The Art Spirit” by Robert Henri
30/10/22
“Cherish your own emotions and never under value them”
Robert Henri
RDH: NOVEMBER 2021
03/11/21
Some good sketchbook work today.
04/11/21
National Common Sense Day. “Portrait of NI: Neither an elegy nor a manifesto” in the Golden Thread Gallery. Interesting layout, gathering work of a similar ilk throughout the decades together.
Anne Tallentire’s “But this material…” in the MAC; great use of spatial interaction with the work and the gallery space. Some really strong work in “The presence of Absence” exhibition from the MFA 2019 cohort group show in QSS.
Really enjoyed the opening of the “Salonathon Show 2021” in Platform - seeing my work alongside some great artists and meeting up with familiar faces!
05/11/21
Wincing the odd time.
06/11/21
“Portraiture exposes the gap between the interior and exterior selves.”
-unknown-
08/11/21
Didn’t realise the gravity…
11/11/21
What was thought to be a dud - must have turned out alright!
12/11/21
13/11/21
Really good day in the studio. “The Doctor will see you Now” finished! This new philosophy of keeping it loose, not striving for a realistic perfection, which is ultimately unattainable anyway, seems to be working.
I have a tendency of focussing on niggles to the point when the paintings get tight and the imagery too self aware. Learning to let go and step back a stage or two sooner seems to work for me.
16/11/21
Didn’t get accepted but that’s OK. Sketchbook work tonight to get brain working.
17/11/21
Very quick trip up to Derry to see “Tilt [At Windmills]” with work by Jarkko Räsänen, Fionnuala Doran, Paul Moore and Robin Price in CCA and “The Shrinking Universe” by Eva Rothschild in VOID.
20/11/21
Blocking in and working out logistics on three pieces today.
29/11/21
Nervous but that’s pretty much down to the unknown factor.
RDH: OCTOBER 2021
02/10/21
Point of order today: DO NOT OVER PAINT!!!
Think “Rex Aegypti Penultimus” is finished.
05/10/21
VAI GET TOGETHER 2021
Rediscovering private and personal spaces / rituals.
06/10/21
Chanelle Walshe - self organised self-curation.
Duc Van Pham - Breaking down the figures - is this a way of adjusting / adding narrative?
Keynote: Christian Jankowski - “The Hunt” “Casting Jesus”
Beuys - difficult.
07/10/21
Why do we put people in boxes?
Superflex - interspecies living - “Flooded McDonalds”.
10/10/21
Dosed to eyeballs so not going anywhere fast.
12/10/21
13/10/21
Two new canvases begun today. Little and large.
16/10/21
Strong sense of self.
Good progress in the studio today. Didn’t mean for the small one to go Holy.
20/10/21
Accepted into Platform Arts group show!
Getting there with “Lady of the Manor”.
23/10/21
Globalist cheerleading.
24/10/21
Wardrobe fiasco.
“Lady of the Manor” finished.
25/10/21
28/10/21
HALLELUJAH!
29/10/21
Definitely been distracted lately but the blinkers need to come back on.
30/10/21
31/10/21
Early morning tonal work to “The Doctor Will See You Now”. Slow and steady progress but definitely best to stop when I did to give new layers a chance to dry.
Merry Halloween.
139th Royal Ulster Academy Exhibition: Virtual Tour
Due to the ongoing restrictions amid the Covid-19 pandemic, the Ulster Museum has rightly chosen to close their doors until such time as it is safer for the public and their staff.
Sadly this means that it will be a few weeks before we can get to see the annual RUA show in person.
This doesn’t mean that we can’t explore in the meantime! The RUA have worked tirelessly to create a virtual experience for the 139th RUA exhibition which you can click through below or visit the Royal Ulster Academy website.
If you want to jump to see where my work is placed you ‘ll find it here.
Special thanks to the RUA and to Paul Marshall to designed the virtual exhibition.
Studio Visit with University of Atypical
On Saturday 3rd October I had the pleasure to show some guests around my studio and was interviewed by the wonderful folks at the University of Atypical. You can watch the video below and check out other videos by the gallery on their Vimeo Page here.
A huge thank you to Jane, Deirdre, Stuart and all the team for making this happen!
RDH: SEPTEMBER 2020
01/09/20
Power is out.
02/09/20
The Rashomon Effect: When the same event is described in significantly different and often contradictory ways by people who were involved.
03/09/20
I do feel a little stuck with the Crimean Painting. Some sketchbook work - get back to the drawing board.
06/09/20
Death Masks: bottling the soul, bottling the trauma.
08/09/20
Very strange few days. ‘Taking Orders’ painting - just not sure where to go with it. Leaving it aside for now and having a look at adding a recent sketch and incorporating it into an old abandoned piece. The only good thing I can see in the failed ‘St. Lurach’s’ work is that weeping willow to the left. It should stay in some capacity.
Very lethargic for some reason.
Thoughts = NOT A REALIST PAINTER!!!
Lifelike/ reality isn’t what I’m aiming for in drawing or painting. Yes, sometimes a more realistic application or approach is required depending on what the image dictates. EG: ‘GO’K’ works in that it hints at realism but ultimately leaves the majority of the portrait minimal - barely any detail. This is not just limited to composition, but especially colour I think.
10/09/20
Belfast bound.
So good to get to the MAC for the degree shows from the Belfast School of Art.
‘Confessional’ reopening was great! It’s a show I’m very proud of.
12/09/20
Some good progress on ‘The Voyage Home’. Less is more - even on this scale I think. Suits the image and composition well.
13/09/20
Finished!
15/09/20
Halfway through September! HOW?!?!
Figuring out ideas for next steps and possibilities. Good to get some sketching done tonight. Forgot how accessible sketching smaller than A4 is.
18/09/20
Guston and de Kooning - both developed making works with a ‘formula’ able to commercialise work / work that could be made in their sleep and sell no problem. Both rejected this formula and started again.
Integrity.
‘Elizabeth’ and ‘Mary Ann’ studies - the looser the better.
20/09/20
I think I’m coming close to a mini burn out as far as studio work is concerned. Might be good to take a step back, read and research for a few days and see where we are.
22/09/20
Finished the little portrait studies. Really different approach but that’s no bad thing. Started some new canvases.
“Art is a wound turned into light.”
23/09/20
Research - that’s about it.
24/09/20
Some good progress in the studio today.
25/09/20
Got scared very easily.
Sketchbook work.
26/09/20
Five canvases on the go at the minute. Best to focus on one or two at a time. First up., ‘Waiting Room’. It’s been a while from I attempted this image.
Seats / Symbols?
27/09/20
What was light at the end of the tunnel has turned into a dark abyss. Shrug it off and keep going.
28/09/20
Sketching
29/09/20
So the past few days have seen a real drop in productivity and drive. Reasons or not —> focusing on work will help. Taking a mini break will also help. Easy to fall into old, procrastinating habits.
Meaty questions.
30/09/20
Studio all clean and tidy!
Galleries safely reopen
This video from the Arts Council of Northern Ireland puts the spotlight on some of the galleries reopening to the public after lockdown. Included in this video is a little sneak peek of ‘Confessional’ which has reopened at the University of Atypical and runs until the 23rd October.
RDH: MARCH 2020
01/03/20
Focus turns to show opening.
03/03/20
Spend a little time looking and you might find a way in. Now at that limbo stage with “No Remorse”. Compositionally solid but colours and painterly gestures are off.
Surprising bound forward on “Self Portrait with Sketchbook”. Face is mask-like (maybe a good thing?)
05/03/20
Nervous as hell. First stop - Ursula Burke in the Ulster Museum. Wonderful scope and the wall mural is stunning. A quick jaunt into town - in GT’s “Dissolving Histories” I especially liked Stuart Calvin’s work. Great to see Dougal McKenzie’s project space show “More Bad News”. Beautiful little touches.
Next onto the MAC for Mark Garry’s “Songs and the Soil”. Placed over the three galleries, the work is immersive and stunning.
Helped with the last little touches to the show prep. Great turnout for Late Night Art and the feedback has knocked me back - in the best possible way. Really not good at taking compliments. Marcus Keeley came by for a chat in the store room for his “Instant Feedback” podcast.
06/03/20
Wee stay with Jane. A beautiful house and a beautiful soul. Finally got to visit QSS for “Four Female Painters” exhibition. Amazing space and great work. Alana Barton’s piece “Blossom” made me cry and not even ashamed to say it. It struck a nerve. The delicacy of the child’s little fingers touching the adult’s hair. Beautifully painted.
Took myself back to re-watch Mark Garry’s videos in the MAC. The close up recordings of the horses is haunting and strangely intimate.
08/03/20
Few days off but little updates online here and there.
11/03/20
Sketchbook work
14/03/20
Scary times. Back to the looking phase. It seems to help.
Self Portrait: face is still very mask-like. Reminds me of a still from “Les yeux sans visage”.
…knowing when to quit for the day is important.
15/03/20
Slow burning day but when I eventually got to studio and began making real progress, the power goes off!
Serves me right for getting ahead of myself.
16/03/20
The “In Conversation” that was to take place with the show in Atypical has rightly been postponed due to ongoing circumstances.
18/03/20
Have to self-isolate for 14 days. The worries mount.
22/03/20
Sketchbook work for the first time in 11 days. Feels like a lifetime.
Is there a better, more cohesive way to go about the drawing side of practice?
I think immediacy, or the notion of immediacy, is still important.
24/03/20
Transferred some recent drawings to acetate.
STEP UP!
25/03/20
Studio time with Radiohead.
26/03/20
A bit of sketching but mainly organising imagery.
“There’s no point in worryin’ what ye can’t control.”
BAK
“No Remorse” is finished. There are parts that still annoy but all in all pleased to it’s best to leave it and move on.
28/03/20
Pushing and pulling with “Self Portrait with Sketchbook”. Frustrating but really fun at the same time!
29/03/20
Cleaning palette and studio up. Also stripped the background of “SPwS”. Too similar to the skin tones and made the canvas seem quite flat.
30/03/20
So bloody close!
31/03/20
Last day of quarantine.
Great to take part in the VAI online café and to get an insight into Tinka Bechert’s wonderful work.
“SPwS” finished. It is very wonky as it’s taken from a very wonky sketch from a few years ago but there’s something about the sketch that made me want to try and develop it into a painting for quite some time.
"Confessional"
Solo exhibition at the University of Atypical Gallery.
Photography by Simon Mills.
Solo Exhibition at University of Atypical
Very happy to be displaying work in the University of Atypical Gallery for a solo show that is opening for Late Night Art Belfast on the 5th March.
Below is the text to accompany the exhibition. “Confessional” runs until the 10th April and there is an “In Conversation” event in the gallery on Saturday 21st March. All welcome
RDH: JANUARY 2020
01/01/20
New Decade. A quiet start to the year but with a feeling of resolve and drive to get things done.
02/01/20
“For the dead travel fast.” - Jonathan Harker’s Journal
Bram Stoker’s Dracula
03/01/20
mem: Sickert’s approach to “Portrait of Hugh Walpole” - one of my favourites - could work. Drastic yes but by simplifying the colours… more painterly…. ambiguous.
04/01/20
The Optimism Gap: Locally good. Nationally bad.
Finished commission. Looked at Sickert and Dumas. Previously it was haggard and stale.
05/01/20
…relieved!
A lot of scanned drawings tonight.
06/01/20
Renewal
07/01/20
Five posts in five weeks.
09/01/20
“Confessional”
Potential title?
11/01/20
“No Remorse” painting is moving very very slowly.
Overthinking personal issues.
12/01/20
Belfast today.
Issues of “crown” install is mind boggling.
DIONYSUS
13/01/20
Office updating and uploading.
14/01/20
Jade Riley wrote a little piece about my practice. Chuffed!
16/01/20
Ideas with Dad for install concepts.
Hodge-Podge.
17/01/20
Bit of breathing issues but otherwise OK.
19/01/20
“Shoah” - 1985 A film by Claude Lanzmann
Eventually got out of a rut (well even a foot out of the door is good) and got sketching.
22/01/20
“To remove unwanted threads of your past (regrets or mistakes) is to undo the tapestry of your life.” - JLP
24/01/20
25/01/20
Last night I had the pleasure of attending the opening of “The Dark” in the CCA. Agnes Meyer-Brandis’ work has made me look at geese in a slightly more positive light.
Started two new canvases and pleased with the progress of “Crown of Dionysus”.
27/01/20
“Crown” finished - including wall fixing designed by Dad.
C.E.’s shouldn’t be halted until the weekend.
Finally getting around to reading the collection of art essays by Julian Barnes. I think since I got it the day I visited John in the Royal I’ve been avoiding it.
28/01/20
Late night sketching is better than no sketching at all!
30/01/20
“Time dissolves the story into form, colour, emotion. Modern and ignorant, we re-imagine the story: do we vote for the optimistic yellowing sky, or the grieving greybeard? Or do we end up believing both versions? The eye can flick from one road or one interpretation, to the other: is this what was intended?
Julian Barnes - “Géricault: Catastrophe into Art”
31/01/20
All in all a horrible day.
RDH: SEPTEMBER 2019
01/09/19
02/09/19
‘Arena: Kusama Infinity’ - such a great artist!
“While the dead show dead art, living artists die.” - Yayoi Kusama
Hope springs eternal.
05/09/19
Great talk and workshop with Action Mental Health. Really positive and interesting feedback from the crowd.
Called into the Ards Art Centre for a quick chat and a little look at two shows opening; Gavin McCrea’s installation and Patrick Horan’s paintings.
At Late Night Art Mark McGreevy’s ‘Flop Sweat’ in the MAC is marvellous! Brilliant use of colour. ‘Knick Knacks and Whatnots’ by Cameron Morgan in University of Atypical is excellent. Blown away by the work on display in the Golden Thread’s “Noise of Silence: Japanese Art Now’ especially Yusuke Asai’s huge mud installations.
06/09/19
“Ferryman” is unusable.
07/09/19
Finally finished the middle panel from the originally conceived “Pioneer” triptych. Think it stands on it’s own merit.
More progress to the the ‘Cooley’ piece.
11/09/19
Sketchbook work tonight.
12/09/19
Really enjoyed “Memory: The Origin of Alien” documentary.
“At the Mountains of Madness” by HP Lovecraft.
“What will humanity find when they look in the dark places?”
15/09/19
Studio work - some additions of spray paint to ‘Cooley’ piece. Walked away before digging too far.
Little panel piece, “The Horror! The Horror” Speed is it’s friend. Wooden supports are responsive to gestural work - less so with the charcoal marks - more layers needed to achieve tonal quality I’m after.
16/09/19
Wonderful article about my time up at Action Mental Health.
17/09/19
Increase in productivity lately. Could it be a confidence thing? I’m working no more or no less than the slump periods. Is it a case of a fine tuning of better judgement when more at peace with practice? Plenty to look forward to in the coming months.
19/09/19
21/09/19
Notes: immediate drawing line combined with more deliberate painterly marks. Cross pollination.
“LW” = by removing the instrument of trauma can it be viewed in a miraculous or redemptive light?
Not spelling out the narrative - Great to sit down and chat about work and ideas with GM.
Visit to PS Squared and “How the Image Echos” show.
Sea Holly Gallery is absolutely stunning and wonderful work on from the 545 pop up group show. So good to see elements of the much loved Orpheus building back in an artistic sense.
22/09/19
24/09/19
Quarantined.
28/09/19
Studio work and “Dress Rehearsal Study” is getting there. It’s weird how every time I paint children they end up completely terrifying.
Ari Aster’s ‘Midsommar’ is utterly amazing. Beautifully filmed and will stay with me for a long time.
30/09/19
RDH: JUNE 2019
01/06/19
Almost a disaster. Too hung up on certain elements and it is holding the piece back. So the notion of blurring the background and having the foreground sharply in focus works. Execution at the moment is lacking sadly. Need to figure out how to fix the mesh fence but will need to redo all the good work from today. Lesson Learnt.
02/06/19
Essentially yesterday was a pure slug fest in the studio.
THE MAC VISIT:
Engine Room Gallery visit:
Belfast School of Art Degree Shows were great. Some outstanding work. Nina Johnston’s tree installation on level 6 is amazing. Regardless of levels/grades that many of the graduates are embarking on that’s the really exciting part.
Looking back, I adored my time in university but detested my degree show. All but one piece has been destroyed and it was the start of a huge, and still ongoing learning curve that’s led my practice to where it is.
Meeting in the evening went really well. Some good feedback and ideas for an upcoming project.
08/06/19
Little break from the studio today to recharge from the overload of art from yesterday.
11/06/19
“Frank Bowling - What do Artists Do All Day?”
12/06/19
“Allowing yourself to be vulnerable is a strength”
“Dana Shutz: How Do You Depict A Feeling?”
15/06/19
Bit of start and stop in the studio but fixative giveth and fixative taketh away!
Just spied Grace McMurray’s piece in the Royal Academy documentary.
16/06/19
“Paula Rego: Secrets and Stories” - Great way to start the day!
“Depression is like a crown of thorns”
Dander down to the river with the dogs.
More pushing back on “Sack Race” although I could have easily got sucked into working on tiny details and not looked at the whole picture.
Treat every painting as a study.
17/06/19
Glazing, Hatching, Cross Hatching, Direct, Sfumato, Painterly, Impasto, Staining, Dripping, Gestural, Broken Strokes, Dotting, A La Prima, Patches, Feathers, Scumbling, Washes, Bravara, Directional.
19/06/19
Knowledge / Creativity / Inspiration
Beginnings / Liberation
21/06/19
Summer Solstice. Pleased with how mesh fence is coming.
22/06/19
Need to let go of aiming to get the little things perfect in the work. Ultimately its holding up the process. Obviously not saying to go full ‘Sloppy Joe’ on it but recognising when things get knit picky - take a step back and reassess time spent on something inconsequential.
Perfection is an illusion.
23/06/19
Little break day. Sophia Campbell on “Sky’s PAOTY 2019”.
24/06/19
There’s no sugar coating it. Intrusive thoughts bombarding for practically 8 straight hours.
Embarrassing, frustrating but mainly just terrifying. I don’t want them anymore.
25/06/19
It will take time to get to grips with what is going on.
27/06/19
Currently going through potential imagery. I think its good to scan through images from time to time to build up ideas.
30/06/19
Getting to grips with terms and conditions and sorting out a plan of action together.
RDH: FEBRUARY 2019
01/02/19
Slight change of tact…
02/02/19
03/02/19
05/02/19
Lagging behind.
06/02/19
Applications submitted.
09/02/19
DISTRACTIONS leads to NOT DOING WORK leads to FEELINGS OF GUILT leads to DISTRACTIONS leads to NOT DOING WORK leads to FEELINGS OF GUILT leads to DISTRACTIONS leads to NOT DOING WORK leads to FEELINGS OF GUILT leads to DISTRACTIONS leads to NOT DOING WORK leads to FEELINGS OF GUILT leads to DISTRACTIONS leads to NOT DOING WORK leads to FEELINGS OF GUILT leads to DISTRACTIONS leads to NOT DOING WORK leads to FEELINGS OF GUILT leads to … etc etc.
How do you combat this?
“Discipline is key" - JG
Break the cycle by physically setting time aside for practice. Depending on the day of the week and other commitments, the type of productive work will differ.
10/02/19
12/02/19
16/02/19
“What’s for you won’t go past you.”
Reworked pattern and colours on clown today.
17/02/19
Great to get painting today albeit a little later than I would have liked.
Counting works - didn’t realise there were so many!
23/02/19
Belfast. Great to see the last day of ‘The Question of Feeling at Home’ in PS² - curated by Moran Been-Noon. Bonus to get a run down from Moran about the show and to see Cecilia Bullo’s work in the flesh! Been excited to see it since her talk in the DLR LexIcon last year. Next was a visit to Belfast Exposed for the ACNI collection show with a solo show by Linda Conroy in the upstairs space. Conroy’s work is disturbing and utterly absorbing at the same time. Removing notions of the individual from religious ritual resonated with me personally. Then it was on to ‘Porous Plane’ by Lennon in the Golden Thread Gallery. The sheer scale and vibrancy of the work was immense. In the information leaflet it says that “no knowledge is required to enjoy the beauty of these paintings” and that Lennon “invites each of us to find ourselves and arrive at our own inclusions”. Leaving room for the viewer is something I’m particularly keen on.
Lastly onto the wonderful ‘Alternate Perspective’ in Platform featuring work by Aimee MeLaugh and Karl Hagan. Both reflect on ‘memory, people, places and trauma’. The grandeur of history painting coupled with highly personal and intimate narratives. Wonderful painting exhibition.
25/02/19
Project profile submitted.
27/02/19
It’s the journey not the destination.
28/02/19
Nearly into third month and nothing really to show for it. Plenty of works in progress but not enough progress being made.